Losing you're mother is one of the most difficult things to go through. When you lose your mom, the person who gave birth to you, who nurtured you, and who was there for you through thick and thin, the pain can feel unbearable.
There are so many moments in life when we miss our moms who have passed away. It could be something as simple as wanting to hear her voice or to share a joke with her, or it could be a major life event, like a graduation or a wedding, that feels so incomplete without her there.
For me, personally, missing my mom is a constant feeling that never goes away. She was my best friend, my confidante, and my rock. She was the person I turned to whenever I needed advice or comfort. Losing her has left a huge hole in my life that I am not sure will ever be filled.
I hate the fact that I can't pick up the phone and call her. I used to talk to her at least five times a day. I'll never hear her voice or see her smile again. I can't hug her or tell her how much I love her. All I have are the memories, and while those are precious, they can never replace the feeling of having her physically here with me.
Grief comes in waves. One minute you'll feel like you're doing okay and that you've accepted her passing. Other times, you'll feel like you're drowning in a sea of sadness and that you'll never be able to come up for air. It's a rollercoaster of emotions that never seems to end.
But through all of this, I try to remind myself of the good times. I try to focus on the happy memories, the laughter, and the love that my mom brought into my life over the 24 years I had with her. I try to channel her strength and resilience, knowing that she would want me to keep going, no matter how hard it gets.
I also find comfort in knowing that she will always be a part of me. Her love and guidance will stay with me forever, and I try my best to honor her memory by living my life in a way that would make her proud.